blah..blah..blah...

Its hard to pretend that you're okay...
when you're in pain...
It feels like crying...
It feels like shouting...
but no matter what you say...
no matter what you do...
One thing will surely be the same...
Your heart is broken
and drowning in pain...

Ewan

Naramdaman mo na bang ung pakiramdam na inip na inip ka pero hindi ka makaalis sa kinatatayuan mo?
Ung gusto mo ng humakbang pero nagdadalawang isip ka?
Ung iconvince ung sarili mong darating siya kahit na sa sarili mo hindi mo alam kung may darating nga ba?
Ung nagmumuka ka ng tanga pero sige pa rin...
Ung mag-antay pa rin kahit na alam mong walang kasiguraduhan?
Ung ngumiti kahit na naiiyak kana?
Ung piliting maging masaya kahit na sa loob loob mo gusto mo ng sumigaw...
Ung magalit pero para saan pa nga ba?
Ung umasa kahit na ayaw mo na...
Ung sabihin sa sarili mo na kakalimutan mo na pero heto at siya na naman ang iniisip mo...

Miss ko na siya...

Sobrang miss ko na siya na kung pwede lang lumipad eh ginawa ko na para lang makita siya... 

Kaso milya milyang distansiya ang layo naman sa isa't isa... =( 

FRIENDSHIP

Para sa pinakamamahal kong kaibigan... 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

 

alam ko malabo mong mabasa ito...hehehe...

pero kapag dumating ung time na un sana naman kahit pano walang tutulong luha sa mga mata mo...

 

Paano ko nga ba sisimulan ang isang lathalain para sayo?

 

3rd year highschool tayo nun ng magsimula ang ating friendship(naks english un ah)...

isang grupo ng 8 kabataan...

mailap sa mga lalake...

at pagdating naman sa classroom mga d makabasag pinggan...

mahihinhin daw kasi tayo...

tahimik...

inosenteng inosente(noon..nyahaha)

 

nung highschool ndi pa tayo ganun kaclose sa isat isa...

sa grupo natin ndi din nawawala ung magkakaclose sa isat isa...

 

tanda ko pa nga nun ndi talaga tayo kasing close katulad ngayon..

tipong tamang kwenta pero may ilang factor pa din...

 

naalala ko pa nga nun...

parehas tayo ng crush... hehehe

 

ndi ko sinabi na gusto ko din ung clasmate natin...

 

hanggang sa dumating ung time na niloloko ka namin sa kanya...

tapos inaasar kita sa kanya...

kinuhaan ko pa nga kayo ng picture noon eh,graduation un...

tapos madalas mo pang ikwento sakin ung crush nating dalawa...

sa totoo lang kahit pano nasaktan ako nun kahit na simpleng crush lang un...

may pinagsabihan pa nga ako nun na isa sa mga kabarkada natin eh...sabi ko sa kanya wag na wag sasabihin sayo kaso masaklap dun eh sinabi niya naman...ayun tuloy nabuking ang lola mo...

 

nagulat pa nga ko sayo nun...bigla mong inopen ung topic na un eh..college na tayo nun..

sabi mo pa nga bakit hindi mo kasi sinabi sakin?nasasaktan na pala kita...naiyak ka pa nga nun...samantalang tumatawa tawa lang ako...wala naman na kasi un sakin...

masaklap lang dun eh nalaman mo pa...pasaway naman kasi, wala talagang lihim na ndi nabubunyag...

 

hindi pa rin tayo ganun kaclose nun...

 

hanggang isang araw pumunta ka sa shop para humiram ng sandals at damit na puti..biniro pa kitang anong gagawin mo sa hiniram mo?magpapakasal ka na ba? ngingiti ngiti ka lang naman sakin...

 

tapos isang araw nalaman naming ikinasal ka na nga...

langya ka ndi mo man lang kami inimbita para makakain..hehehe

pero sa totoo lang ah...nakakatampo talaga...

kasi naman minsan ka lang ikakasal ni ndi man lang namin nasaksihan...

 

alam ko naman nahihiya ka lang samin atsaka iniisip mo kung anong sasabihin namin sau..kaw kasi ang aga lumandi..hahaha peace!!!

pero hindi ka naman namin hinuhusgahan sa kung ano mang nangyari kasi wala kami sa sitwasyon mo...

 

dumating ung time na nalaman mong buntis ka at kami naman syempre todo support...

naalala ko pa nga nun dinalan kitang donut kasi sabi mo gusto mo un...kaya siguro un ang paborito ng inaanak ko...

 

alam ko marami ka pa ring pinagdadaanang problema basta wag mo lang kakalimutan na nandito kami lagi para sayo..

 

tanda mo pa ba ung sinabi ko sayo nung minsang nilakad natin ang sm hanggang satin?

"maglalakad tayong dalawa at hindi kita iiwang mag-isa"

 

mas ok na saking parehas tayong pagod na maglakad kesa naman umuwi akong nakasakay sa tricycle samantalang ikaw naman naglalakad mag-isa...

 

ikaw...kayo... mahalaga kayo sakin...

alam ko hindi ako perpektong kaibigan at minsan sablay ako pero kahit kilan ndi ko kau iiwan...

kasi mahal ko kayo eh...

tau tau na nga lang nagkakalokohan...hehehe

 

alam ko malungkot ka ngayong birthday mo...

pero hayaan mong ilipad ng hangin ang mga kalungkutang nadarama mo...

 

salamat sa lahat lahat...

 

tanda ko pa nga hanggang ngayon ung sinabi mo sakin eh kahit sa txt lang un...

"kung may problema ka sabihin mo samin...wag mong kimkimin diyan sa loob mo...ndi man kami makatulong sayo andito naman kami para sayo"

 

sobrang natouch talaga ko nun...

nahalata mo palang ndi ko ugali magsabi sa inyo...kasi naman ayoko lang makadagdag sa mga problema niyo...

pero ngayon open na ako sa inyo...lalong lalo na sayo...

 

minsan nga alam ko paulit ulit nalang ung mga sinasabi ko sayo pero sige ka parin sa pakikinig sakin...

 

habang tumatagal mas lalong nagiging matatag ung pagkakaibigan natin...

 

para na nga kitang bf kasi halos inaraw araw ko na ata ang pagpunta sa inyo buti nalang mabait ang asawa mo..hehehe

nakikikain pa...

nang-iistorbo...

naglalabas ng sama ng loob...

 

salamat sa pagiging isang mabuting kaibigan...

sa totoo lang para na nga kitang kapatid eh...

 

sabi ko nga sayo kapag natupad ko na lahat ng pangarap ko pangako kasama ka dun...

 

magiging masaya ako pero kasama ka...

 

hanggang may bukas kaibigan kita...
remember walang iwanan..hehehe


p.s: sa next birthday mo nalang ako babawi...

SECOND CHANCE?

Ung totoo?

hindi ako naniniwala sa mga second chances pagdating sa relasyon...

Sabi nila "LOVE IS SWEETER THE SECOND TIME AROUND" (tama ba?wahehehe)

pero d ako naniniwala diyan..

ang adik ko noh? basta ganun ang paniniwala ko noon...

Naalala ko pa nga nung time na tinanong ako ng exbf ko ng "bhe, what if magkahiwalay tayo? bibigyan mo ba ako ng second chance?"

nagulantang ako sa tanong niyang un...na para bang nakita ko si sadako sa harap ko... 0_0

at kinabahan din... un kasi ung time na para bang nagkakalamigan na..(december kasi nun..hehehe)

nakakawindang na tanong na para bang may balak ang kumag...

at ayun nga bago kami mag-anniversary eh nagbreak kami...saklap noh?

dami ko pa namang plano nun...(next post na ung kwento kung balak mong makitsismis..hehe)

Balik tayo sa tanung ni ex ang sinagot ko sa kanya ay ang isang nag-aalangang DEPENDE..

Depende kung ganu kalaki ung kasalan mo at sa nagawa mo.

Speechless ako ng time na un, nagulat kasi talaga ako... Hindi ako makapag-isip ng tama kasi ang naiisip ko bakit naitanung niya un?

Bakit nga ba ayoko ng SECOND CHANCE?

kasi para sakin once na sinaktan ako ng isang tao may tendency na gawin niya ulit un...

hindi lang ng isang beses pero ng maraming beses pa...

katangahan na lang kung bibigyan mo pa siya ng pagkakataon para saktan ka...

at siguro dahil na rin sa napakataas kong PRIDE na mas mataas pa sa Mt. Everest.

Kung hihingi man sayo ang isang taong ng second chance buong puso mong ibigay un sa kanya...

sa pangalawang pagkakataon ibigay mo ulit ung tiwala mo sa kanya... ung hindi pilit at ung bukal sa loob mo...

Hindi naman masama kung bibigyan mo ng isa pang pagkakataon ang isang tao para itama ang mga maling nagawa niya pero kung ung pagkakataon na binigay mo sa kanya ay sinayang niya lang siguro pagsasampalin mo na siya ng bonggang bongga with matching flying kick pa...

Hindi masamang magbigay ng SECOND CHANCE...

wag lang sanang umabot sa THIRD CHANCE at ng marami pa...

kaya ang masasabi ko lang eh...

"LOVE IS SWEETER THE SECOND TIME AROUND"

at sana magkaroon din kami ng second chance ni adik..nyahaha asa pa..

HAPPY 10th MONTHSARY

Tommorrow is supposedly our 10th monthsary...
D ko alam kung maaalala mo pa, pero malamang sa hindi...
Bakit ba kasi nag-eemote na naman ako para lang palungkutin ang sarili ko.
Ang ADIK ko naman kasi sayo eh... Paksyet yan...





HAPPY 10th MONTHSARY ADIK... =(

BLOG

Samot saring blog na ang nabasa ko...
at sa totoo lang masarap magbasa ng blog ng may blog...hehehe
dahil bukod sa simpleng pagiging chismosa eh nakakakuha din ako ng kagaguhan kalokohan aral.

naenjoy kana...
narelax...
kinabagan sa kakatawa...
natuto kapa.... panalo dba?

Baguhan lang din ako sa pagboblog at aminado naman akong hindi talaga ako writer...
frustrated pwede pa...

Bakit nga ba ako nagboblog?
kasi dito pwede kong aminin ang kahit na ano tungkol sakin na hindi ko kayang aminin sa iba...
dito nasasabi ko ang mga hindi ko masabi sa pamamagitan ng simpleng pagsusulat...
dito mailalabas ko ang totoong nararamdaman ko sa likod ng mga ngiti ko...
dito ako ang bida sa sarili kong mundo... 

LOVE NOTES from JOE D MANGO

Just wanna share this to you guys...

I know you'll also loved this one...

Love don't give us the promise of forever, but having faith on it makes us believe that there is.

 

Love is not a one-shot deal that you have to get right at first. You will always make mistakes and find your ideal partner. Love is also a process of finding your way, finding the right one.

The greatest mistake we'll make in a relationship is when we look at somebody else other than our partner to satisfy our emotional and physical needs. The second mistake is when we consciously allow ourselves to be the object of these emotional and physical desires.

We can never be certain of our relationships because not all of them are built to last our lifetime. We have to constantly nurture it so it can grow and we can grow old with it.

In the midst of despair, pain, and sorrow, someone comes in our life and gives us strength to believe in life again. The love they give us gives us a blind faith that helps us believe in ourselves again, that we can make our dreams come true.

Love can be the best thing that will ever happen to you. More often than not, your lover is also your bestfriend, one who will stand by you through thick and thin.

-yeah, he used to be my bestfriend...my ADIK..

Most ordinary relationships begin and most of them continue as forms of mutual exploitation, a mental or physical barter, to be terminated when one or both parties run out of goods. The truth is you will not rn out of goods if you believe you won't.

People cannot change who you really are. You just have to tell them and be honest about the real person behind you. You cannot hide in your cloak of deception forever. You deserve to be happy just by being yourself.

 

A relationship is a two way street. It's never all your fault or the other person's. You go into the relationship together and work thorugh it all together. And remember, the best relationship is one w/c your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

When we begin to put so much weight on what others fell and think about our relationships, we become distracted and lose our own perception of our partners.

If you choose to fight for love, then you should be prepared to face the consequences and risk associated with it. But if you choose to follow tradition over the dictate of your heart then you also have to be prepared to lose someone you love.

Let us always remember that, in the end it is not how much love we have received that would count, but how much love we have given and how much more we are willing to give even without the promise of earning it back.

We constantly have to make an extra effort to make others feel that they are important to us and the small things they do are appreciated. The greatness of a relationship is built on the foundation of small acts of kindess, love and compassion.

Whatever relationships you have attracted in your life at this moment, they are precisely the ones you need in your life at this moment. There is a purpose and meaning behind all events, and this purpose and meaning develops you as a person and as a lover.

What hurts most?

..when you can’t fight for that one thing that would make you happy..

..I may never be the guy you look forward to seeing every day… but I will always be the guy who will look out for you each and every day..

Sad Girl: “don’t make me feel that i’m just a selfish jerk just because I made you cry”!

Sad Guy: “then don’t make me feel like I did nothing for you when I almost died crying just to see you smile…”

Men are haunted by the vastness of eternity. And some ask ourselves: Will our actions echo across the centuries?

Will strangers hear our names long after we are gone, and wonder who we were, how bravely we fought, how fiercely we loved?

Love isn’t when you can’t sleep… it’s when you want to keep your eyes open…

Love isn’t when you keep holding on… it’s when you learn to let go…

Love isn’t when you kill yourself with jealousy… it’s when you understand…

Love isn’t when you fall for someone… it’s when you catch that person when she falls…

Love isn’t when you see her everywhere… it’s when you close your eyes and she is still there…

Love isn’t when you tell her what you feel… it’s when you give everything for her sake…

And Love isn’t when you think you were blind… it’s when you know she was wrong but you didn’t mind!

Always remember that when we lose someone we love, there will be pain in our hearts. But when there is pain, there will be strength and courage, and with that, there will always be the hope of finding someone who will love us and someone we can love even more.

Sometimes we just have to control our feelings for someone. Truth is, our feelings doesn't know what's right or wrong. That's why our minds reason with us so there can be balance.

Otherwise, we would always trip as we aimlessly follow what our hearts dictate.

A relationship will always need trust and faith. Trust, so you could keep a relationship strong, and faith, so you can build a strong foundation of love that could weather all storms to make it last for as long as you wish to.

A relationship is a two way street. It's never all your fault, nor is it all the fault of your partner. Both of you have to work together to make it work. And, remember, the best relationship is one in which your LOVE exceeds your NEEDS for reach other.

Letting go of someone you love is hard, but holding on to someone who doesn't even feel the same is much harder. Remember that giving up doesn't mean you are weak. It only means that you are strong eonugh to let go of something that was never really yours in the first place.

Live not on what your heart dictates but on what is right and sensible. There is still time to turn away from what is wrong. Remember, the true joy of living is not only in loving ourselves but in loving w/o hurting other people.

Even with all the pain that comes with loving, we should never let our hearts wallow in anger. When love comes into our lives, be thankful. But when it leaves us, even if it's against our will, we should only be sorry or a while. There should be no room for our hatred to grow in our hearts.

As it has always been said, we should embrace love when it comes knocking on our doors and willingly let go of it when it says goodbye. We shouldn't regret that we've lost it. Be thankful that for once in our lives it has dwelled in our hearts and made us happy.

If we pass on love today, there may never be a next day to show it and even if there's still a next day, there may never be someone to show it to. Love is never afraid. It should not hold you from showing someone how you feel. If it does, then it is not love.

Loving someone with all our hearts isn't all that it takes to make a relationship last. Sometimes, even if we prove our worth in many ways, seen and unseen, we still cannot guarantee of permanence and loyalty in our relationships.

Sometimes, loving someone means giving him/her the freedom to choose who and where he/she wants to be. This may be painful, but still be thankful, because the heartaches, the tears, the gloomy days and even the fruitless years helped you grow into a strong and wonderful person, not a bitter one.

source: http://messupwithkat.i.ph/blogs/messupwithkat/2009/04/09/joe-d-mangos-lovenotes-020-025/